When the Ego comes into alignment with the Higher Self, it ‘disappears’.
It doesn’t just happen one day all at once, you don’t just suddenly realize that it’s gone. It happens moment by moment, one day at a time, one mini-realization after another… that it isn’t there when it has been in the past, struggling, forcing, trying to do instead of letting go. And in some moments you feel fear, find yourself wondering where it went and a little scared of this new place. This is actually the Mind, with its attachments to the past and ‘how it used to be’ inside You, trying to measure, process, describe, compartmentalize, define (and thereby limit) the experience. It can’t find the Ego, because it has merged with, and become indistiguishable from something bigger… the limitless Higher Self (the 
Soul), which is continuous with cosmic Consciousness, the Divine, Shiva.
But you sit with it and the fear goes away by itself - you fall back into the Flow. Because you’ve already had tastes of Bliss and know the rewards are AWESOME compared with what you knew and what you were before…
Om namah Shivaya!
NAMASTE
